Posts Tagged ‘friends’

Jennifer Aniston

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Well, as I am sure many of your are probably aware, the media has stopped harping about Mel Gibson, or at least slowed down for a small while. Of course, that also means that the media has found something else to dig their nails into. Now, they have jumped on the celebrity bashing bandwagon with “Friends” star Jennifer Aniston.

Apparently while on Regis and Kelly, she used the “R-word”. Now, for those of you not in the know “R-word” means Retard. Apparently it’s very politically incorrect, and really shouldn’t be used. So, because she referred to herself as a retard, everyone just feels the need to jump down her throat. Forget the fact that until quite recently “Retard” was perfectly acceptable. It’s not even like she called anyone but herself a retard! Hell, Comedians say Retard on a daily basis, but nobody jumps down their throat!

You know what really irks me? People who are moaning and complaining about what she said are hypocrites! Seriously, I am willing to bet the majority of them has said something that a group of people find offensive, yet they have the nerve to rant and rave about what someone else said without thinking? Get over yourself people!

This whole Politically correct crap is just really getting out of hand. I mean seriously! You know what? I as of now find the word “fat” offensive! That’s right, it should now be referred to as the “Other F-word”. From now on I wish to be called Proportionately challenged American.


They say the road to hell is paved in good intentions, and this is a quote that I have always taken to heart, and often use. It’s an extremely insightful quote, and it’s just as true today as it was the first time it was uttered, in fact it might be more true today than it was then!

It seems like everyone is trying to do something good, nice or right, however they don’t fully think things through. People tend to act without giving their actions any thought. The idea pops into their head, and it strikes them as being somewhat helpful, and they follow through with it. Sometimes the idea is good, however other times it can cause more trouble for the person they are trying to “Help”.

Why am I even discussing this you ask? Well, since you asked, I might as well give you an idea. See, I am a fairly busy-ish person. I don’t have as much free time as I would like. It seems as if I am not doing one thing, I am doing another. I am usually always occupied with something, which unfortunately takes up a big chunk of my TV watching and Video gaming time.

Anyway, due to my busyness occasionally, people do things for me, that they feel is extremely helpful, then turn around and expect me to be grateful. The thing these people don’t realise is, that there’s certain things that need to be done a certain way. Somethings I am very picky and I will admit, very anal about, and in the end I have to turn around and fix whatever it was people were trying to “Help” me with.

It wouldn’t be so bad really if people actually discussed it with me before attempting to help me. In fact, that might even be appreciated. It’s when they decide to surprise me, with their good intentions, and when I ask why they did this, they respond with something like “Well, I’m doing the best that I can”. Then, I have to turn around, be all nice and grateful, wait for them to leave, then turn around and fix it, and lose even MORE of my free time.

Pisspoor friends

Posted: May 21, 2009 in General
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Let me tell you a little bit about something that pisses me off.

Friends who decide that when they are in a relationship with someone, it’s a great idea to ditch their close friends. Even if it’s just one friend. This type of shit really pisses me off. It makes me REALLY resent the so-called “Friend” and makes me ask myself, were they ever truly a friend to begin with?

Case in point! I have(Had?) this friend, whom I felt was my closest friend. She and I shared everything together. I told her things I wouldn’t dare tell anyone else, simply because I trusted her more than I trusted many other people I know. The thing is, she has this thing, where when she gets involved with someone, she ditches me all together.

It would be one thing if this had only happened on one occasion. However in the time I have known her, she has been involved with two people. Both times she tossed me away like a sack of backseat garbage, and decided it would be in the best interest of her new relationship if she pissed all over me.

Why? Why the FUCK would someone who claims to be your “Best friend” do that to you? Maybe because I am a dude? Who can say, if that’s the case however I call “Bullshit!” because I have been in relationships, and some of those women I have been with didn’t like my female friends, or felt threatened or jealous of them. Did I flush those friends down the toilet? NO! Why? Because, as much as you like to think the relationship you are in will last forever, odds are pretty damn good that it won’t. In fact, most likely, your friendships will outlast your next 4 relationships. When your “Lover” has finished fucking you over, it’s going to be your friends who are there to help you pick up the pieces and tell you what a manipulating prick that person was you were with, and how you can and will do much better than them.

So, why the hell would I toss those people away? Who does that? I’ll tell you who. Selfish little people who are only thinking of themselves, because they take your friendship for granted. They figure they can shit all over you, because when it’s all said and done, you will forgive them for not being there for YOU when you were upset about something, because they were too busy being off giving only thoughts to themselves and their own happiness.

So, if you are a friend being dumped all over by one of these types of “Friends” Don’t worry, because it’s not you. Your “Friend” just has some serious fucking issues.

the-one-ringLord of the rings Online is a great game. In fact, it’s one of my favorite MMORPGs to date. It’s got some good voice acting, epic storylines, and most importantly it takes place in a world that I am familiar with. Even when I was just starting out, I didn’t feel like a TOTAL noob. Some of the characters were familiar, The locations, the background storyline and even some of the monsters. Though i was new to the game, i still had a basic idea of what was happening, and was able to thrust myself into my character a lot more easily, than say if it was an unfamiliar setting that i had to learn every single thing about.

Anyway, so I have been trying to get my friends from Secondlife to play LOTRO as well. Why? because as good as Secondlife is, it does get boring after awhile, and im at that point, where the games a bit boring. The only reason i continue to log in, is because of my friends. If not for them, i would probably have abandoned Secondlife months ago. So, it would be nice if they were as interested in lotro as they are in SecondLife.

While on the subject of LOTRO, I purchased the expansion pack “Mines of Moria” advance order just last night, and im still not exactly sure why. my highest level character isn’t even 30 yet, so reall..the expansion pack won’t really benefit me for awhile. I have had that character for over a year….Thing is i don’t play as much as I would like to….so it’s not fast leveling. That being said, it will probably be another year before I even see any benefit from the expansion pack…but at least I get a spiffy title and (Hopefully) spiffy cloak.

So, I didn’t go to Vegas this weekend. I am still kicking myself over it. They had a blast though, which is GREAT! I just kinda wish I got to be a part of it. I would have loved to have met some of the coolest people I know from online. I mean, they aren’t as cool as me….but, let’s be honest. They are only mortals.

So, I missed out this time. Should another time come around…where I get a chance to meet these home chickens, you can bet your sweet bippy I am going to be there with friggen bells on. Nothing will me keep me away, short of some kind of disaster…and if its going to some horrible place….like…Hell or Texas…or oklahoma.

I am really kicking myself for missing this thing though. -.-

A few months back, I found myself in a very bad place. If you have read this blog in the past, you might know what I am talking about. In case you haven’t read this blog allow me to re-cap! Back in February I found out I had Cancer. This was definitely not one of my finer moments, and in it’s self was enough to put me in a dark gloomy place. Depression was present, although I did try to brush it off with humor, because that’s what I do. I make jokes.

As if finding out about the cancer wasn’t enough to throw a wet blanket on the month of love. I also found myself getting dumped by my girlfriend of three years. The break-up came on suddenly, and quite honestly I wasn’t expecting it. However, like it or not..It was slamming into my face like a 2-ton sack of bricks.

I was not a happy camper.

There I was, Alone with cancer and nobody really to talk to. The one person I cared most about, the one person I always felt I needed was gone. She was the only one I felt “Right” talking to about major situations, because when my life would spiral out of control she always helped set it right. Now however, she was gone.

On top of that, after she stepped out from my life I suffered yet another blow. A death in the family, and again I realised how I was on my own throughout this whole thing. I did manage though. I am proud of that fact! I pulled through, but god damn I missed her so bad.

Months flew by, and finally, she started talking to me again. The woman who was my best friend and so much more. She was actually talking to me again, and I was so relieved. My best friend was back. The thing is, and I realised this pretty quick..I was still in love with her. After 4 months, I was still in love with this woman.

How pathetic is that?

Just talking to her was making my stomach do flips. I didn’t want to be in love with her. She managed to fall out of love with me. That’s why she didn’t talk to me for months. She distanced herself from me so that those feelings she had would fade away. Those feelings of mine however stayed strong. I am not sure why this was. Perhaps because I spent so much time thinking about her? Wondering why she left me, and what I did. I thought about her every day.

Yes, I know. I am a pathetic loser..who just so happens to be a total nutjob. Go ahead, let her rip! Nothing anyone can say to me is anything I don’t already know. I just wish I wasn’t in love with her anymore. I can’t help how I feel I guess. Although she and I are friends again. Maybe that’s what I need right? Maybe that will give me some level of closure? One can only hope.

I’m not a horrible person…I’m not. I realise I have my faults, like all people do. I am a jealous type of person(Though my level of jealousy has only been a recent occurance..and I hate that I am jealous…it makes me sick to my stomach), I am butt ugly..I realise everyones opinion of what is attractive and not changes for person to person..but I am fat and ugly by any standards.

 That aside, I am not a bad person. I make an excellent friend. I am loyal, honest, trustworthy and generous to a fault. I love to help people, i try and keep my word to the best of my ability..because I sincerely believe that a man is only as good as his word…and if his word isn’t worth crap, then quite frankly..neither is he.

I believe these qualities make me a good friend, and if I was less jealous and more attractive, I believe I wouldnt be a bad romantic catch either. So, why then would someone whom i spent over 3 years with…both of us deeply in love with someone..after breaking up with me just push me aside after saying she just wanted to be friends. Why does she ignore me and treat me like some freak with a contagious disease that will make her grow a second head? “I need space” she says…Well, fine…but during that time while shes taking what space she needs…she drives a wedge between us..that after enough time passes…im afraid there wont be anything left to salvage.

Why does she do this? It doesn’t make sense to me, and she wont really talk to me..because..she needs her, in the meantime I am hurting beyond belief and deprived of the person I considered my best friend and closest confidant…It’s like I am being punished..and I don’t even know for what.